I’m posting this today because tomorrow is my boyfriend’s
birthday and I will be damned if I spend the second year in a row unable to
celebrate out of sadness or fear.
I live in Tuscaloosa, AL. On April 27, 2011 I was a
freshman, still living in a dorm on campus, on the fourth floor. My boyfriend
was a freshman too, living in a dorm just across the street from mine. We were
celebrating his 19th birthday. We got up, and he opened his
presents. We went to class. We came back and had an argument at his place. I
don’t even remember what it was about. We were so mad at each other that he
dropped me back off at my dorm and then went out to lunch without me. Or was it
class? I don’t remember.
I was angry. I stayed in my room, played around on the
computer. Got an email from the university around noon that we were expecting
severe weather later in the day, that all classes after 12 were cancelled. No
big deal, I thought. We had been getting severe weather threats and tornado
watches almost once a week for a month before that day. Plus, I had the added
bonus of being from Northern Virginia and completely able to write off severe
weather. We never have severe weather. Last time there was any kind of tornado
anything in the area, I was really little and my mom made me move my crafts to
the middle of the living room, instead of being next to the windows. Unprepared
didn’t even begin to cover it.
Another email from the university came later in the day.
Really severe weather. Be prepared. Big tornados. I was slightly concerned, so
I texted a friend on the first floor, letting him know that I was going to just
hang out in his room if the sirens went off. This was at about three pm.
I didn’t even have time to finish the text before the sirens
erupted. I grabbed my computer and my phone, and hustled downstairs. My
roommate stayed in her room, thinking it was nothing. I wasn’t taking my
chances.
We were huddled in his roommate’s room, watching the weather
channel in horror as it became apparent that we were not getting out of this
one scot-free. We watched storm cells hit one city after another, watched the
weatherman rattle off names of new towns every five minutes that were about to
get pummeled. We learned about the devastation that had taken place earlier in
the day. We had no idea. I watched the roommate’s girlfriend dissolve into
frantic tears as the weatherman announced the name of her hometown. I watched
her start to panic when we realized it was coming at us. I stood in the doorway
of the room, watched her frantically rip sheets off his mattress, watched her
carry it into the living room. I didn’t know what to do. I was frozen.
I turned and went back into my friends’ room, and stared out
the window. The university police were driving around campus with their sirens
blaring. I don’t know if I texted Matt. I texted my mom, who wouldn’t realize
the severity of the situation until 10:00 that night. I texted my cousin, who
lives in Huntsville, works in the same building as the storm chasers, and who
was giving me updates and information faster than the TV could. Who was also
worried she was about to get hit herself. And when I looked back out the
window, I saw that the trees were parallel to the ground. I saw that the sky
was green. I turned to my friend, who is a Tuscaloosa native and is very
prepared for such situations, and pointed out the window. He simultaneously
shut the blinds, pulled me by the back of my shirt away from the window, and
shoved me into the hallway.
We huddled, and waited. I was scared. I think I cried a
little, but mostly I just shook. We had the mattress. I had my phone. I
couldn’t get texts out or in, except at extremely sparse intervals. I didn’t
know where Matt was. I didn’t know how long we had until it would hit. I didn’t
know anything.
Someone shut the storm doors to the hallway. There were
people who stayed in the lobby, surrounded by the glass windows, opting instead
to watch for the twister.
Then it happened. The lights flickered and went out.
Everyone went silent. We heard a rumbling noise, like people were running back
and forth on the hallway above us. But no one was up there. And then we heard
the people in the lobby scream. Long earth-shattering screams, like they were
staring death in the face. We heard them screaming that it had touched down by
an academic building just a minute’s walk from our dorm. We braced ourselves.
We waited. And nothing happened.
The lights stayed out. The rumbling faded. We waited for
half an hour before anyone was brave enough to just venture into one of the
rooms off of the hallway, to see if they could look out the window. I don’t
know if we ever got an all-clear. Maybe we just knew because the sirens had
stopped. Somehow, I got to my feet and ran outside. I ran to Matt’s dorm. It
was fine. He was fine. We were shaken up, but okay. The fight was forgotten.
Campus was fine. The worst damage were tree limbs down. We had no idea what had
happened to the rest of Tuscaloosa.
We heard rumors that McFarland Blvd had some damage. We got
in my SUV and decided to drive down and look. Everyone else had the same idea.
It took me 30 minutes to get to the edge of campus, where we were turned back
by police officers. “We’re quarantining the area,” they said. “You are
interfering with the rescue effort.” We turned back. Finally, pictures started
coming in. And we saw the damage. The tornado had touched down barely a mile
from campus, just missing us and the hospital. It had hit tons of residential
properties. The infrastructure of the city was gone. Impossible to say when
power would come back. Impossible to say who was alive and who was gone. No one
could tell.
We went back to Matt’s dorm and made a plan. Get food. Get
water. Get gas. Then we’ll figure everything else out. I piled 6 other people
into my SUV and drove us all to a CiCi’s Pizza in Northport, a town that hadn’t
gotten hit. At this point the dining halls had announced that they were out of
food. We stuffed ourselves, then went to a gas station and got gas and water.
We charged our phones in my car. We resolved to sit and wait together in Matt’s
dorm.
Not long after we made this plan, night fell. We gathered
around a mega-flashlight, ten of us, maybe more, just sitting together.
Sometimes we talked. Sometimes we said nothing. What was there to say? No one
knew what to do. A friend of ours was worried. His hometown was rumored to have
been hit. He was panicking. “We have to go out there,” he said, ready to go
move heaven and earth. “We have to find people and we have to help them.
They’re trapped out there. We have to. It’s our city.” No one said anything. I
turned to him and said that we had to let the rescue workers do their jobs. And
what would he do if he saw a dead person? A child? He wasn’t ready to see that.
None of us were. He chose to wait with the rest of us.
Suddenly, it started pouring outside. Thundering,
lightening. A girl rushed in with her laptop, the only one that still had
battery. “Another one!” she screamed. ”There’s another one coming at us!” We
lost it. We had beaten the odds through one tornado, no one is lucky enough to
beat two in one day. We knew that. People were running around, down to the
first floor, calling neighbors that were even lower on a hill slope than we
were, and could we stay with them? We paced around, not knowing what to do, not
hearing any sirens, and questioning if they would even work after the day’s
earlier events. Finally, we called 911. There was nothing else to do. We didn’t
want to take away from the rescue effort, but if there was another twister, we
didn’t want to add to the amount of people that needed rescuing. There wasn’t. We were in the clear.
Matt called his aunt, who lives in Prattville, AL., a town
that wasn’t hit. He asked if we could drive the hour and a half and come stay
the night. We were concerned that if another tornado developed, we wouldn’t
hear about it without electricity. She told us no, to wait where we were and
come as soon as it was light out the next day. She didn’t want us out on roads
that could be blocked in the middle of the night. I lost it. I had been strong
and rational through the whole ordeal, but when I realized I also had to get
myself through the night, I lost it. I was ready to have an adult come in and
make my decisions for me. I was exhausted. I didn’t want to continue to be the
only person that could affect whether I lived or died. I was done.
Matt and I lay on his bed, not saying anything, just waiting
to see the sunrise so we could get on the road, and get out of Tuscaloosa. The
university had already announced that classes were cancelled on Thursday. We
waited, and then we drove to Prattville, a couple of shaken refugees from a
nightmarish experience.
Part 2: The Aftermath
If Wednesday was the worst day of my life, Thursday was a
close second. It was starting to sink in, what we had been through, how lucky
we were. During the experience we were scared, but we were also filled with
adrenaline. We made decisions on a minute-to-minute basis, and we thought very
little about the implications of everything. Thursday was when we had to start
picking up the pieces.
I texted everyone I could think of to make sure they were alright.
I called my mother. I emailed my family. I posted on facebook and twitter, to
let people know that I had survived. But mostly I just sat on the couch and
watched endless amounts of the news, sobbing intermittently and balling tissues
in my fists. Matt couldn’t reach one of his friends. I watched him call the Red
Cross and the check-in sites the school had set up, with no luck. We later
learned that he had just driven home immediately and wasn’t able to contact
anyone. I cried for the possibility that he was gone. I cried for the people
who were unable to contact loved ones, who really were gone. I listened to
Ashley Harrison’s heart-wrenching story, and I cried for her, and her
boyfriend, and her family. I cried for how lucky I was that I still had Matt,
and I cried imagining what it would be like to lose him. I cried for my city. I
cried for Alabama.
The university announced that Thursday that finals were
cancelled, that the water was not potable, and that everyone needed to move off
of campus, immediately. We made a plan to move out, driving back to campus
Friday, spending the night in Prattville, and driving to Cincinnati (where
Matt’s from) Saturday. I couldn’t sleep that night. I couldn’t sleep alone that
whole next week. I couldn’t go out without feeling guilty, because I could go
home to a house that was in one piece and a town that was functioning
perfectly, when so many of my fellow students didn’t have that option. How can
you go to a party when you know that a city you care about is desperately
scrambling for a sense of normalcy in the wake of a disaster? I couldn’t. I
couldn’t stand knowing that I couldn’t help.
And now, a year later, we’re still looking for a sense of
normalcy. The state came together and helped. We’re cleaning up. We’re rebuilding.
Now, instead of lots full of twisted rubble, we have empty lots with yellow
permits on stakes in the middle. Permits that mean it’s okay to rebuild. It’s
okay to move on. It’s okay to fill up this area with houses and people and joy
again. It’s okay. It will be okay.
We are Tuscaloosa, and we survived.
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